Dress/Jobs/Losing weight

So, I think I found a dress for my sister's wedding! I let her know that it was hard trying to find a dress in the color she wanted in my size. So I was given another color to search for. The seller on ebay that I talked to before has the dress I want and he has the color I need. He says he can do it for me. I'm terribly excited!! So much that I barely slept. No, I slept. lol but I am very excited. I was getting stressed. I didn't want to show up at her wedding looking like a bum. It is very hard, wanting to help with her wedding and be there when I'm 700 miles away. She showed me a link to her dress, omgosh! It's beautiful. She will look amazing, like she always does.. darn her. lol She has some great taste in clothes..
Im just excited that she's getting another go at happiness. Adam is a great man and his kids (my soon to be nephew and niece) are decent.. lol It's crazy.. I didn't get along with his kids, but when Aulia told me that Adam proposed and she said yes, I loved them instantly. Crazy how that stuff works. haha Kie will be happy with a brother and a sister.
I know that my Mom and Dad and little brother aren't so excited about Aulia and Kie moving out in June, but I know they are at the same time. It will be hard at first, but everything will be great. Maybe Stephen and I will be able to visit more. Or move.. haha I wish!

I'm very excited about this dress. haha
It's this color:

But this style:



We are still looking for jobs. I swear it's getting harder and harder. I don't think anyone in SC is hiring. I guess I will start looking elsewhere for a job. I just don't know of a place that wants someone who can't do anything and who doesn't want to do anything. lol
I'd join the military, but they wouldn't take me. I'm overweight, and I think the weight isn't going anywhere for a bit. haha When I was in FL for Thanksgiving, Aulia got me walking. She has, well had.. I have it now, a DVD by Leslie Sansone. I think that's how you spell her name.. She has you walk a mile or 2 right in your living room, or kitchen if you don't have a living room like me. haha It's really good walking, I feel better after each walk. I was able to fit into a pair of jeans again, but then I stopped walking like the smart person I am. Now I can't fit into them. Yay dumb me.
I want to lose weight, for health reasons mainly. Also, I don't want to be fat for my sister's wedding. I was fat for my wedding, and looking back at the pictures is difficult. I was happy about what was happening, but miserable because I could see myself. Sometimes you look in the mirror and you think you look great. Then you see pictures of yourself and then.. well that bubble popped and you finally see that you look like a whale with lumps all over your body like you're trying to smuggle bread rolls. I want a change, I don't want to look starving. I just want to be healthy. I would love to weight 180 pounds. That means losing a lot of weight, but I'm ready to do it.